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Announcing Changes In Betrayed, the novel by Wodke Hawkinson

After we published our novel Betrayed, a reader inspired us to write an alternate ending. We started at Chapter 49 and took the story in an entirely different direction. This extra release was titled Betrayed - Alternate Ending. After some time had passed, we then decided we should put together a book with both the original story and the alternate ending in one publication. This we called Betrayed Includes Alternate Ending. So, we had three books with Betrayed in the title. Very confusing.

We’ve now decided to do away with the second two versions and simply add the alternate ending into the original novel. So, very soon, Betrayed by Wodke Hawkinson will contain the original book along with the alternate ending as bonus material, and the other two will go away. We think this will be a boon for our readers, and it should eliminate confusion.

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New Release & Cover Reveal: Dark Longings by @WodkeHawkinson

New Release & Cover Reveal: Dark Longings by @WodkeHawkinson


Ruby Hayes spends her days working in a coffee shop and attending college. After a mysterious phone call, her ex-boyfriend Kenny goes missing and Ruby is determined to find out what happened to him. Although the police are looking into his disappearance, Ruby decides to pursue her own investigation. Details, seemingly unconnected to Kenny, begin to emerge. A body fished from the river. A vampire-themed nightclub. A shadowy group whose members include the elite and powerful of the city. Secret gatherings where perverted desires are sated and dark fantasies played out. A series of unsolved murders.

Each clue brings Ruby closer to the truth...and nearer to danger. Will she find Kenny? Or will she herself become prey?

Dark Longings on Kindle at Amazon
Dark Longings in multiple formats on Smashwords
Dark Longings on Nook at Barnes & Noble

Coming soon to paperback!


How We Do Twitter

We were excited when we discovered Twitter and learned how to use it to promote our material. We’ve “met” a lot of terrific friends there and connected with fellow authors and readers alike. Since we started, we’ve developed our own method for using this wonderful social tool. Here it is in a nutshell:

When we get a new follower, we read the profile and then scroll down through the timeline. If we see they regularly retweet others, we follow them back and add them to our private list of retweeters. Then, when we go onto Twitter each day, we first choose tweets from that list to retweet. They deserve it because they are generous enough to RT others.

Each day, we also attempt to RT those under certain hashtags because we like them, and because we know they will return the favor down the line. The top hashtags we favor are #asmsg, #teamretweet, and #click1. But there are others geared specifically to authors as well.

And finally, if we see something we think our friends would be interested in, we will RT it.

Our personal approach to etiquette:

We do not ask anyone to RT for us unless we are willing to RT for them. Any other approach would be selfish on our part.

We try to keep at least one of our tweets near the top of the timeline so our followers do not have to scroll through tons of tweets to find one of ours to RT. We want to make it easy to retweet us, should anyone be so inclined.

We try to return each RT for an RT. This is our way of saying thanks to someone for taking the time to RT one of our tweets. We realize many people don’t do this, and that’s fine, but it is how we have chosen to express our gratitude for an RT.

Thanking us for an RT is very nice, but not necessary at all. A return RT is always appreciated, though! When we RT someone, we look for a tweet about the tweeters project or interest; if we can’t find one of these, we send a thank you for the RT.

We try to respond to all mentions, but we may miss a few. We truly appreciate every kind mention, shout-out, and FF.

We avoid RTing anything offensive or divisive. Our Twitter account is strictly for enjoyment and for the promotion of our books and those of other authors or helpful/entertaining information. Of course, every person’s definition of offensive is different, and this should be taken into consideration.

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New Release & Cover Reveal: SUE, a sequel to ZEKE by @WodkeHawkinson


New Release & Cover Reveal: SUE, a sequel to ZEKE by @WodkeHawkinson

We hadn’t originally planned to do a sequel to our novel, Zeke. However, the response we received from a number of readers indicated that a sequel was in order. And we, too, wondered how Sue would recover from the damage Zeke inflicted upon her, both physically and emotionally. So, we set to work writing the aftermath of her ordeal with Zeke. It was a good experience for us. When writing Zeke, we disliked his character so much, we often procrastinated working on the book. We did not have this  roblem with Sue.

We wrote Sue with a goal in mind: that anyone could enjoy it, even if they hadn’t read Zeke beforehand. With that in mind, we infused the book with enough information from the original novel to make the story understandable, without going overboard
and telling the story of Zeke twice. We hope we succeeded in that regard.

For readers who have not read Zeke, it is a dark novel of sexual obsession and psychological suspense. Sue falls for Zeke, leaves town with him, and soon discovers just how demented he is. By the time she realizes her danger, she is far from home and in deep trouble, for he has no intention of letting her go.

For readers who found Zeke impossible to finish due to its graphic nature, rest assured Sue is a much gentler read. The book follows Sue through her emotional confusion, fear, fantasies of revenge, and eventual healing as she struggles to put her life back
together. Nearly a year after her disastrous road trip with Zeke, things are finally looking up and it seems her worst troubles are behind her.

But, Zeke is still out there and he hasn’t forgotten his little bunny.

Sue on Kindle at Amazon
Sue in multiple formats on Smashwords
Sue on Nook at Barnes & Noble

Coming soon to paperback!

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Tangerine—Here at Last


Announcing the Release of Tangerine

Tangerine has now been released by our publisher in digital form on Smashwords. The paperback version is coming soon, possibly by next spring or summer. The book has undergone revision and is now ready for readers.

Tangerine is quite different from our other two novels, Betrayed and Zeke. It was actually our first co-written work. We pitched it to publishers and waited. Nothing happened.

After positive experiences with self-publishing our other books, we decided to self-publish Tangerine as well. Very soon after that, a publisher to whom we had originally pitched
the manuscript contacted us with an offer. We accepted that offer and yanked Tangerine from all venues. Now, after having undergone a rewrite, our first novel is once again on the market.

We were conflicted about labeling Tangerine a science fiction novel, for it is not hard sci-fi. But it does have certain elements in common with that genre. It’s set in a future where space travel is commonplace and aliens are a natural part of everyday life. Some of the action takes place on Earth, but a lot happens on the beautiful orange planet of Tangerine or on its primary moon.

In Tangerine, Dr. Ava Majestic and her companion, Pisk (a feline-like alien), travel through space analyzing planets for possible colonization, a position Ava accepts after the death of her parents. She inherits from her father a mysterious device with unusual capabilities. This attracts the attention of a wealthy and powerful collector, the unscrupulous Augustus Agnotico. Before Ava is even certain of her legacy, Agnotico begins his pursuit of her. He hires a rogue Finder to tail her through space, hoping she will lead him to where the device is hidden.

We hope you will enjoy our newly released but first-written book, Tangerine.

At this time, Tangerine can be purchased here


Zeke here at last

Dear reader,

For those of you who have been (im)patiently waiting for our next novel, the waiting time is now at an end. We actually started the novel, Zeke, before we wrote Betrayed, Betrayed Alternate-Ending, and Blue, but we were taking it in a different direction than it ended up going. Let me explain why this novel is taking us so very long to finish.

You see, there’s something about our main character Zeke that tended to make us want to ignore him. To put it bluntly, we hated Zeke. He was just so unpredictable. He has more mood swings that Tarzan has vines. Is he good-looking? Yes! Is he sexy? Yes! Is he nice? Well…when it avails him to be so.

So, what was the problem with getting this book finished? Why were we putting this novel off? Well, the fact is, our character Zeke was so absolutely despicable we avoided him whenever possible.

When we finished Betrayed Alternate-Ending, Karen suggested working on a project we both were looking quite forward to writing: a fantasy. But I said, “Hold on. We have something else to do first; don’t you think we ought to pull out that nasty Zeke we’ve set aside for so long?”

She reluctantly agreed, and we began working on our devilish character along with his poor innocent girlfriend. We moved along fairly well and then would lose days when we found ourselves, once again, ignoring the rascal.

Now, I am proud to announce that Zeke is out there, available for everyone to learn to hate as much as we do. Get your copy today at@

Sincerely yours;

PJ Hawkinson

Get your today @ http://www.amazon.com/Zeke-ebook/dp/B008J9DH2M/ref=pd_sim_b_5, https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/180705, and http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/zeke-wodke-hawkinson/1112034199?ean=2940014592161


Surprise no longer on the Way; it’s here!

Betrayed Alternate Ending

Here's our promised surprise. As we said, it is something about Betrayed. What could we possibly have done with a novel that is completed? Well, I'll tell you...We wrote an Alternate ending. Check it out today @ http://www.amazon.com/Betrayed-Alternate-Ending-Wodke-Hawkinson/dp/1470043653/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1346186589&sr=8-1&keywords=betrayed-alternate+ending, https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/130643, and http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/betrayed-alternate-ending-wodke-hawkinson/1108622042?ean=2940014008853

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Excerpt from Betrayed by Wodke Hawkinson


Brook screamed and held her hands in front of her, palms out, pleading, “No, no, no, please don’t do this. All I want is to leave. Please let me go. I'll keep my mouth shut, I swear! Please!” Jase grabbed her jacket and tore it from her shoulders. Her blouse quickly followed, ripped open and torn away like tissue paper from a gift. She dropped to the floor, arms crossed over her bra-covered breasts. Filled with dread, she pulled her knees to her chest and curled into a ball.

“You need help?” Pete asked Jase, excitement lacing his voice.

“Hell, no,” Jase said as Brook huddled on the floor, staring up at him through her hair. He slid his shirt up over his head, revealing a chest nearly devoid of hair. An intricate tattoo of a bizarre creature with a snake’s body attached to a woman’s head ran up from his right nipple around the back of his neck, ending on his left shoulder. “I got this licked.”

He reached down and yanked Brook roughly up by one arm, bruising the soft skin. Seizing a handful of her hair, he pulled her face forward and mashed his lips against hers, forcing his tongue deep into her mouth. Brook gagged and pounded on his chest. Reaching upwards, she tried to pry his hand from her hair.

From somewhere in the house came sounds of fury; things being thrown around, breaking glass, and thuds. Gina muttered expletives just loud enough to be heard.

Jase grinned at Pete, holding Brook easily with one hand. “It sounds like your old lady is having some fun, too. Hand me a blade.”

Brook’s eyes grew wide with terror, and she quickly lowered her hands to her side. “You don’t need to do that. Please.”

With a cold smile, Jase reached back and Pete laid a knife in his hand. Brook struggled to break free, but Jase tightened his grip on her hair and flipped the blade open. “Better hold still,” he sneered, “or I might slip.” Brook froze as he slid the cold metal beneath the front of her bra and sliced though the silky material. The knife did slip, leaving a thin red line below her breast. She cried out.

“Oops,” Jase said in a mocking tone. Then his mood darkened. “You ain’t hurt bad, bitch. I’ve had worse cuts shaving.” He closed the knife and tossed it back to Pete, who opened the blade and wiped it clean on his pants leg before returning it to his pocket. Brook followed the movement with her eyes, wishing she could get her hands on the knife. But she was defenseless.

Covering her breasts with her hands, she begged, “Stop! Please! Don’t do this.”

Jase released his grip on her hair and moved her hands out of the way. He grabbed her breasts and squeezed hard. “Ohh, yeah!” he said. “Ain’t these nice?”

“Damn right they are!” Pete boomed. He and Benny watched Jase’s moves, their eyes burning with a strange light. Jase lowered his head, and buried his face between her breasts while Benny whooped his appreciation in the background.

Nothing in Brook’s life had prepared her for what was happening. She felt the intrusion of his skin against hers, smelled the patchouli he wore, and felt revulsion crawling inside her like worms. She reacted without thinking of the consequences; she hit, slapped and pushed on his head. Shoving her hands roughly aside, Jase pressed her down onto the mattress, falling on top of her. “Give me back those tits,” he leered and lowered his mouth to her chest.

Lapping at the knife wound, Jase smacked and slurped. “Yummy! Nothing like fresh blood.” With a grin, he stuck out his tongue, revealing the slick red coating. He bugged his eyes at her and laughed satanically.


Marry Me

by PJ Hawkinson

“Marry me!” These are the words most women long to hear from the lips of her loved one.

After the cherished words comes the wedding planning. However, it seems to me that weddings are trending to competitive instead of romantic. Too garish, showy, and kitschy, instead of elegant, classy, and refined.

The ultra-wealthy have begun to make a mockery of sharing marriage vows. It has became a contest of who can invite more people, have better entertainment, and spend the most on their wedding gown.

Weddings should be intimate affairs to celebrate the next stage of your life. Family, loved ones and close friends should fill the seats and share the moment with the couple.

I say, let’s bring weddings back to their true form and forget the glitter, glamor, and glitz. Let’s lose all the excess and let the loving spirit of the ceremony shine through.

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Writing Rape

Every survivor of rape experiences the trauma in her (or his) own unique way. Some common after-effects include fear, anger, guilt, shame, loss of trust, anxiety, insomnia, and even denial. Because of the element of shame associated with rape, many victims are reluctant to report the crime and /or seek the help they need.

Like child molestation, rape is an abhorrent and aberrant behavior, one that people are expected to realize is wrong without being told. They are expected to glean this from social cues as they grow from children to adults. As mature humans, they should ideally have no inclinations toward sexual abuse, or at the very least, perceive that such urges are considered deviant and are criminal. Perhaps this is expecting too much of some small minds. Perhaps it needs to be stated directly and without flinching that forcing sex on anyone against that person's will is worse than just a bad idea; it's deeply and unequivocally wrong. Would having this fact ingrained from an early age stop a perpetrator? Probably not. I suspect many rapists commit their first offense before the societal clue gets through their brains. It certainly couldn't hurt to add this information to any sex education program. Rape is wrong.

Stupidity is no excuse for rape. Ignorance of laws, societal mores, and moral standards is no excuse either. But you have to wonder how many people were ever told not to do it. Although experts claim rape is not about sexual gratification, but about power and control, a rape survivor might have difficulty accepting that. Victims can be rendered powerless or humiliated without sexual contact. While I will concede to the experts on that point, it's pretty damn hard to distance the intrusive sexual element from the crime and see it as strictly a domination/control offense. Rapists are much more than mere bullies who never learned to keep their hands to themselves. That they have chosen to exert their sadistic control via a sexual attack is significant.

When researching the subject of rape for our novel, Betrayed, we encountered sad statistics and shocking first-hand accounts. If this influenced our decision to grant the perpetrators in our tale less than well-rounded personalities, then so be it. They were undeserving of such, and frankly, we didn't care to give them that much respect. It's possible we will be criticized for this, but we shrug our shoulders. If someone else wants to portray rapists as misunderstood and maligned characters with full and complex personalities, then that's their business. They can pound away at their keyboards to their hearts' content. Maybe the future will change our minds; maybe we will be interested in that challenge someday. But not now.

We also learned that survivors have to take the time to heal and need the space to experience their anger and rage, feelings to which they have every right. Each individual that has endured rape must heal in her (or his) own way. Help is available. There are many excellent websites, hot-lines, books, articles, therapists, and groups ready and willing to step up and assist a survivor. For these caring resources, we say thank you.

Sexual violence is only part of the story in Betrayed. Survival and recovery have important places in the tale, as does love. Our character emerges on the other side of her devastating experience a different person. Though it does not happen overnight, she is able to overcome.

A partial list of resources:




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